Today was a pretty easy going day. I realized that God is moving me away from pretty much everybody. They told me that this walk that I would take is going to be a lonely one and at times I'm going to feel like I don't have any friends. And that's exactly how I feel right now. It's crazy because even though I feel lonely I don't have the desire to wanna talk to anybody or even be around anyone. But it just crossed my mind that, " I am really alone." with the exception of God of course.
I think the reason that I've come to terms with being alone is because I prayed this simple prayer, " God, I just wanna be ok. I just want to know that no matter where you take me, I just wanna be ok."
God hasn't let me down yet. I know he won't let me down. When you fully put your trust in God all the things that seem like they used to matter; they don't anymore. All the people that you thought you needed and wanted around; you don't even miss them. When God calls you higher you have to answer and go. This is one trip I'm taking that doesn't require any packing. God is supplying all my needs.
Chadara, I love how you openly share your heart! It's a testimony of the journey God is taking you on. It can seem like a lonely journey, but God's spirit is always with you on it. Praying God shows you those who are of a like mind that can come along side you in the process. Many blessings are about to come your way, believe and receive.
ReplyDeleteThis reminds me of Esther. I learned so many lessons from reading that book. When you look at her life, she was taken from everything she knew, isolated, then surrounded by people who could help get her where she was going--to be with a king. I've gone through the same experience but I sure love the ladies God continues to send cross my path. Lovely post shuga!
ReplyDeleteDr. Dalton thank you so much. I try to be as open and honest as possible because I know as a teen myself, we learn better when someone has actually been through the situation rather than someone who hasn't. I want them to know that the journey isn't easy and to look at my testimonies and see that they aren't alone.
ReplyDeleteMs. Tamara thank you for reading :)
ReplyDeleteHi Chadara!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing a transparent! And you have a very nice blog!
It takes great courage to write about how you feel, especially
publically. I just want to encourage you to know that
you are never alone. Years ago someone told me
"You may feel lonely, but you are never alone!" In
other words, God is always with you and he'll never
leave you or forsake you. So, hang tight girl!'
Trust me, in due timing, he'll send more amazing
people on your path!
Hugs!!!!
Kennisha ❤