My Life is Not My Own

Just when I thought I was going to sleep God placed it on my heart to write; excuse me if I make any errors lol.
But I was just sitting here thinking about God. How faithful he is and how much I adore him. How grateful I am to have a relationship with him; to grow in him each day. God you are just awesome!! I really can not imagine where I'd be if it had not been for God! People ask me all the time, "Don't you feel like you're missing out on being a teenager or being normal?" My response is always, "What was I doing with my life before that I couldn't live for God?". Can I be honest with y'all, I mean really honest? What am I really missing out on? Yes, there were things I had to give up, but it was things I could do without.
Clubbing: I never liked the club. I hate to be grabbed on, felt on, rubbed on; all that. I came to the club looking good, hair all done, but I'm leaving a mess!! It's hot. I'm only 19 it wasn't like I could buy drinks (though it didn't stop me from drinking. Come on let's tell the truth).
Friendships/Relationships: at first I was really sad when people I considered to be friends left my life. But I didn't realize God was really looking out for me. Iron sharpens iron and truthfully some of those friendships were just as dull as when they first began. Same with relationships. I know what is pleasing to God; that mess had to go.
Even sex! Yes I said it. I talk about this more in my book but; the only place the devil could attack me was through sex. All that other stuff; giving that up was easy compared to that. I wanted love. I felt like that was the only place I felt love: WRONG! Let me tell you something, the love I received from God Is better than anything I've ever felt before. People don't realize that Gods love is unconditional. It doesn't fail.
This was by far the hardest thing and I'm still working on this: CONTROL! I have major control issues; I like to be in charge. I ran away from the call i had on my life for 4 years because I wanted to do it in my own time. I wanted to stay in school because at that time I felt like that was the place I was suppose to be. I went to Gainesville without even consulting with God! And I begged God to take me away from Gainesville too, I had no peace. I tried to give God control in doses lol. I would not fully let him have his way. But let me tell y'all, it only took me one incident. February 28,2012 my hair fell out!! And when I say fell out I mean I was literally putting my hands in my head and when I pulled my hand out, I had a clump of hair in my hands. You wouldn't know if I hadn't told you that my hair fell out, but I knew. It was as if God was saying, "Since you like to be in control so much fix this?" And you know what, I couldn't. That day I told God, "You Got It!" lol. I can laugh now, but that day I was in shock!
I say all this to say point blank period: I Thank God! Do not let a tragic incident take place in your life or wait until you get a certain age to live your life for Christ! Give your life today. Let's do this thing for real! God is so faithful to us. We follow people all day long on twitter, but we can't follow Him. Have pointless relationships but can't start a relationship with Him. Text and run our mouth all day long but can't take the time out in our "busy" lives and say to God "Thank You". Everyday that I have breath I am going to serve Him! God wants all of us. And to be honest who else deserves to have our life but Him? After all, our life isn't our own.